Mind of my Stroked Brain

 " I love you "... ​ What does it mean? I am aware of what it means generally. We are familiar with those words commonly in many contexts. This is a debate and deliberation I have been having in my mind for some time now. We can love people - our parents, siblings, spouses, children, family, friends, etc. We can love animals - dogs, cats, all forms of pets. Or generally be an animal lover overall. "I Love all animals" type... Or, we can love things as well - so many times we have heard "I love my car", "I love my bike", "I love my house", etc, etc. ​ But what does it mean? I feel this (and I am sure there will be many other perspectives and interpretations) I cannot really simply say "I love someone" and leave it at the level of words. My love towards someone can only become real if I find ways to express my love towards them. Expressing love happens in several forms - care, affection, attention, concern, sacrifice, adjusting,...

  In 28-July-1914, Austria-Hungary declared war against Serbia for a reasonably local issue. This event is officially regarded as the start of world war 1.However, there were many other things happening making the world a tinderbox ready to ignite before this. Geopolitically, There was escalating alliances & rivalry like - Triple Alliance (Germany, Austria-Hungary, Italy) - There was the Triple Entete ( France, Russia, Britain)There was the Balkan crisis (Austria, Hungary, Russia)There was the Moroccan crisis , etc. Geoeconomically, There was the imperial rivalry b/w France & Britain regarding dominance of Asia & Africa and their resources/ riches. Rivalry b/w Britain & Germany for naval supremacy for trade leadership. Capital driven pressures on society and unrest . Hangover from military conflicts, Japan's victory over Russia Decline of the Ottoman empire affecting central Europe Severe arms buildup amidst many of these nations. World war 2 had diff...

 Recently, I wrote that I am living on the edge everyday between going on v ​/ s giving up. It probably can also be interpreted as the edge of remaining sane v ​/ s going insane... Anyway, I have often wondered, when everything is looking so bleak to the mind's eye, what makes me go through the day and make it to the next day. What is it that is causing this? Is Love what is giving  ​me the  strength? Love is a very fashionable word in my opinion. It is very easy to say we love someone. It is equally applicable to our love towards people, animals and things. In my opinion, Love gets manifested to reality with care and affection. That's how our love is expressed. Sure, I love my wife, children, family and friends. Everyone to different extent ​s  depending on the degree of closeness or separation. But it has been many many years since I have really expressed any love through care towards anyone. In the initial period of the stroke, I was very very desperate to want t...

There are many challenges and limitations that I face everyday, to just get by the day. I am not unique in that aspect. There are 100s of thousands of people who face challenges and limitations everyday.  I think it is the element of "hope" that is different. I am guessing (& I might be wrong ​ here ), but I feel somehow there might be an element of hope for some improvement  ​in the future  that  ​ p ​ropells  most to go on. I am guessing it might also be the situation with very elderly individuals who have an unexpected mishap/ accident and impacts them  ​ severely .  ​e g , consider an elderly person in ​, say -  their 80s, reasonably independent ​ otherwise ,  ​but  having an  ​unexpected  accident ​/ fall breaking their back/hip. It will be very severely limiting. Given their age, they will inherently know (I am guessing ​ again ) that "hope" and probability of recovery is very dim. That's very very demoralising and di...

  I have been tinkering with and using AI for a while now.  I have used it for coding, documentation, spreadsheets, market  ​ /stock analysis, asking all kinds of information about facts, processes, events, generating questions and scenarios, etc . Pretty much in almost everything. I have not come back empty handed yet and it is getting better every day... ​ Sure, some things might be incorrect or made up. It can be spotted after a while.  I have recently got promotional access to a pro version of an AI tool and it is even better than I imagined  ​( duh! ​) There will be none (actually, there are none already) reasons to go to a school or college for getting information about anything.  Sure, information doesn't give us logic, reasoning and understanding how and why that information  ​was  arrived at  ​and why things are  that way. It needs something more. There are tons and tons of free content on YouTube and a zillion other o...

I watched a movie last evening. It had a lot of scenes with prisoner torture , interrogation and techniques.  It is something I could imagine as a young boy growing up as " 3rd degree " treatment. It was regularly used to refer to extreme torture for interrogation in movies. Of course, I don't know if there exists anything by that name in real life but it existed in reel life definitely.  So I was thinking, almost all of it involved some kind of physical torture to affect the mind eventually. The end goal is to make the subject spill the beans on something. But we have to get to the mind for it to happen. And that invariably involved some form of physical torture/ abuse. I think I have a better idea. I have a fair amount of confidence it will work.  Take a normal person (the subject) - Attach a tube to their stomach (peg it). Dont give them anything to eat or drink. All the required nutrition and fluids can be given as a badly coloured, ugly looking fluid every couple of ...