20211230 : wilfull underperformance
When I am trying to voice, my nurses will say "try louder". When I try to blow the candle, "blow harder, try harder". When I try to speak, "swallow and clear the throat". When I sit, it will be "sit straighter". Etc. Etc. No, I am not complaining. It's not like they are ordering me, they say it gently and I know they are only encouraging me. But I often wonder, What is it that we feel one is "willfully underperforming" first, as against feeling maybe it is "inability to perform". What would be assumed as one's incentive to do so?