Mind of my Stroked Brain

 This is a long one and maybe a very confusing one too.. If you want to spare yourself the confusion, best not to go further...  These are just my thoughts not intended to contest anybody's beliefs. When I had my stroke, I had many experiences. I saw myself on the OT table undergoing the trachiostomy. It was not a 3 sec experience, i saw myself for what seemed like half a minute. I could very clearly see them make the incision near my throat and put the pipe in. I recognised Dr. Dheeraj the instant I saw him and even knew his name. He had made an appearance on several occasions to me in various contexts. There was a lady and guy who chisteled off my right wrist to take my watch. I was left screaming in pain to die bleeding. I saw myself undergo another operation where they used some sort of small grinding machine to completely shave off my tongue. They said it was very normal when it's obstructing breathing and the grows back. When my speech therapist later asked me to put ou...

Now that i have an account of what transpired, i will try to giva a glimpse of what was happening in my head. I dont know if they were dreams, hallucinations or imaginations. They were fantastical and detailed and unlike dreams which you typically forget or fades out, some of them i remember very clearly. I had no sense of time and dont remember the sequence it all played out. Each thread felt like it ran into days.. reminds me of the movie 'Inception' where your life in that world is 20 times normal time.. and if you asked me, i  could swear it was all real. It took a while to figure it was all just in my head... ___________ I was in the ambulance of what looked like some basement, seemed more like the basement parking of some mall. There was a lot of fight and argument and there was no room free to admit me. So, i stayed in the basement for days together.. ***** This might have been in the 2st hospital, im not sure ___________  I was tied to a chair and left dangling from a ...