20211108 : Speaking hurdles
Whenever anyone visits me, I am asked and encouraged to speak. My family has asked a million times. My vocal chords don't move. I don't get voice most of the time. But that is a simple chicken and egg story. Unless I try it will not move. I know that. Even more funny is - what do I speak? Whenever I have tried, the word sounds fine in my head. But out comes a sort of a croak. Nobody can understand what I am trying to say. After half a dozen tries, everyone gives up and I am exhausted. It is very easy when someone asks me to say a word. Still it is a croak that comes out - but since they know the word already. Irrespective of how it sounds, it sounds better as they already know the word. It is the same with predictable sequences. Like 1,2,3... Or a,b,c... Or January, February, March... Etc. They all sound intelligible - while I am still saying gibberish. But if I don't speak gibberish, it won't sound any better. I know that too... Most times I put on 2-syllable or 3-s