20211201 : my OCD mind
I like for things to be done in a way. Many reasons for it, but it bugs my mind If done otherwise... The first is just OCD. I have always had OCD. The stroke did nothing to change it. Not everything but something's I had to do a certain way. I don't get angry or agitated or upset if done otherwise. Just something doesn't fit well in my head. After the stroke, I could do nothing. Everything was done the way it was done... The earliest I can remember is when folks kept something, anything on the bed some way. It wouldn't even touch me, but the nut in my head would become loose. I don't know if I was able to show it, as I had very little movements then. Many many things done in the hospital wound me up. Over time, I have gotten used to not being able to do anything about it. It's a game in my mind now. I keep placing bets on how stuff gets done. I feel like I am at the casino each time. Ex. Everyday, after my bath, moisturing lotion is applied to me. In my head, th...