Mind of my Stroked Brain

I watched a movie last evening. It had a lot of scenes with prisoner torture , interrogation and techniques.  It is something I could imagine as a young boy growing up as " 3rd degree " treatment. It was regularly used to refer to extreme torture for interrogation in movies. Of course, I don't know if there exists anything by that name in real life but it existed in reel life definitely.  So I was thinking, almost all of it involved some kind of physical torture to affect the mind eventually. The end goal is to make the subject spill the beans on something. But we have to get to the mind for it to happen. And that invariably involved some form of physical torture/ abuse. I think I have a better idea. I have a fair amount of confidence it will work.  Take a normal person (the subject) - Attach a tube to their stomach (peg it). Dont give them anything to eat or drink. All the required nutrition and fluids can be given as a badly coloured, ugly looking fluid every couple of ...

Around 3:00pm is my daily torture and I dread it. It's the time they give me half a glass of juice or water orally for swallowing. Half a spoon at a time. Every day I secretly hope that they have forgotten, but the glass emerges without fail. Every spoon, or every other attempt, the fluid aspirates (goes into the wind pipe), causing violent cough and a very painful struggle. After the nightmare for sometime, comes the next spoonful and I have to open the mouth, knowing fully well what follows next. Most days I have to stop after a few spoons as it's unbearable. After this, I swear to myself that I won't go through this torture again and send harsh messages to my wife that I will not undergo this (self inflicted torture) daily and not to give anything next day... Next day, is another day, and like someone seeking pleasure in pain, I go about it all over again, with a small hope that this day might be better forgetting what yesterday was like... PS: before I can trust in God,...