Mind of my Stroked Brain

In the past few days/ weeks, I have been watching a lot of videos regarding mathematics concepts. Don't ask me why, I don't know why it started but I have not been able to stop. Nothing complex, very basic stuff... I have not considered myself very good with mathematics but neither have I considered myself bad with it either. I have been 'ok' all through - have had no love or aversion towards it. Over the last few days, I have realised how bad I am at it. I can still use it effectively, but I have had no idea what I am doing. Needless to say, that is how we were taught growing up and we never bothered to find out either. In case we were curious, who would we have asked anyway.... Over the last few days, I have been devouring the concepts. Everytime, it has been a revelation to me with a feeling of "oh boy! That is what I was doing all along!" There are a few favourites of mine as well - whose stuff I keep going back to. All free of course. I am sure there are ...

Today, school starts for my elder daughter - offline, physical school, after almost 1.5 years. I am very happy for her and the kids in general. But I am very sad for myself. Not because she won't be in the house, I wouldn't see the kids when they were in online class also.   I am very sad because I won't be able to see her class materials and submissions anymore. It was helping me to be involved in some way in her academics from this year. I used to enjoy the tour of the classroom everyday. I can't help but think, will other parents go through this withdrawal symptom caused by the sudden loss of visibility enjoyed for so long. Or will it be a celebration for it stopping… Will the children rejoice, for the parents can no longer keep tabs. Will the teachers be relieved -- no longer having scrutinizing eyes of parents with everything... For now, I will enjoy the same transparency with my younger daughter - while it lasts...