20220515 : the benchmark issue
Just after my stroke, after I could think properly i.e., I used to be very easily irritated with everyone around. It is understandable, generally speaking - my whole world had turned topsy turvy! The irritation was quite indiscriminate - I don't think anyone was spared - nurses, therapists, family, friends, anyone who was doing anything for me basically. In a way, I am glad I could not express it in any way - it would have been ugly and sad otherwise. It continued long after, even after we got home. I guess the main benefactors of the outcome of this was my wife and my nurses at home. The nurses would change very frequently too. Everyone was equally treated by me. Over time I have given it some thought, a lot of thought actually. I have felt there were 2 primary reasons for my constant irritation. One was the understandable bit - it was basically frustration with life the world and everything else - misdirected against everyone around. The second, was a difficult one to understand