Mind of my Stroked Brain

I have been in this state for 3+ years now. I have been unable to do much , but try to overcome the feeling of uselessness by doing something or the other, what I am able to, using the phone and online. It is probably superficial but helps to a certain extent to get over the feeling. However, the really low points I feel is when someone else in the house falls ill. Ith inability to do anything to give care, comfort and help in any way is an absolutely useless, helpless and hopeless feeling...

I have had mosquitoes sitting on me regularly enjoying their drink uninterrupted. Some places I can feel them, sometimes not, sometimes it itches, etc. But I have got used to them and ignore them for a long time... I have had all sorts of insects. None of them have bitten me. They are amusing to watch. Once in a while, a small spider runs along. I don't know if they bite. Sometimes it itches very much. Ants are a very regular visitors. Don't know if these ones bite either (the small brown variety).  Off late, I can reach some of them - on my abdomen or right hand. But I have got used to them as well and just ignore them. Initially, I don't recollect who had told me, I was told I would feel strange feelings - like burning, ants crawling, etc. on me as the limbs recover. So when I could feel that crawly feeling, I was overjoyed that my hand was healing. I was so disappointed later to see an actual ant taking a stroll. Over time I have got used to it. They don't trouble me...