Mind of my Stroked Brain

My earliest memories of deep craving was just after the stroke in the hospital. It was peak summer and a very hot. (Not that I could feel any heat but by how everybody was reacting and talking about it). I was struggling to even swallow a couple of drops when everyone was glugging down bottles of water. I was parched. They used to give a bottle with every feed. It used to be neatly stacked on the table in front. I now know I was not feeling thirsty. I haven't felt thirsty in 3 years. There are no feelings in my throat. It was just the mind's craving to want to drink water. I haven't felt that craving for food. Maybe because everyone was careful that I don't see it. I could hear description of foods from the eateries around and what was swiggyed etc. But I didn't feel that craving as could neither see or smell anything. Now, I have numbed the mind to water and sight of foods enough and I don't feel anything. However some strong smells I can get when I am sitting ...

This thought is not new. I've felt this way for a very long time. Just sharing it to see how right or wrong I have always been. Whenever I shopped for food items, I looked very carefully at the ingredients list - to see what all crap we were putting in. But never read anything about the nutritional information. Especially the calories. I always felt it made no sense. It's like picking up a litre of petrol because it said 100kms. What does that mean anyway. We will only know how far it will go, if we know the make/model of the vehicle, how old the engine is, it's maintenance/efficiency, Breakdowns in the past, etc. Sure, 1 litre will go 100kms, if you are running a moped maybe, but if you own a truck, good luck. All the nutritional information and calorific values are of the food, mostly in a lab.  No idea what amount of it one is capable of absorbing or converting to energy. We can only know when we know the age, the weight, the heigh, the metabolic capacity, condition - he...