Mind of my Stroked Brain

I had written some time back about the entertainment every time I had an x-ray in the hospital. Unfortunately, there is a downside to the whole matter. When the x-ray guy leaves, he will just leave. I will be in some vague position, the sheets will have been removed, the pillows moved etc. Basically he will just leave. No thought that he should try to put things back the way they were when he came. It is not just the guy with the xray, pretty much everyone in the hospital is like that. The physiotherapist will come, move everything including the bed position for their job and just leave. The nurses will come - whatever the job - feed, vitals check, etc. They will do their work and leave. It bothers me no end. Definitely because I can't move and put back things nor can I ask anyone to do so. Maybe others don't feel as much for that reason. But I also think it is hardwired. When I was very young (I don't remember the age, but it was quite young), my father used to have a cupb

I like for things to be done in a way. Many reasons for it, but it bugs my mind If done otherwise... The first is just OCD. I have always had OCD. The stroke did nothing to change it. Not everything but something's I had to do a certain way. I don't get angry or agitated or upset if done otherwise. Just something doesn't fit well in my head. After the stroke, I could do nothing. Everything was done the way it was done... The earliest I can remember is when folks kept something, anything on the bed some way. It wouldn't even touch me, but the nut in my head would become loose. I don't know if I was able to show it, as I had very little movements then. Many many things done in the hospital wound me up. Over time, I have gotten used to not being able to do anything about it. It's a game in my mind now. I keep placing bets on how stuff gets done. I feel like I am at the casino each time. Ex. Everyday, after my bath, moisturing lotion is applied to me. In my head, th