Mind of my Stroked Brain

When I was in this hospital - needing them to supply feeds, it was 3 years ago. Had to take their service this time too. When they get the feed, they also give a bottle of water with it. They only need about 100ml each feed. Very soon, the bottles build up . At the rate of 3-4 everyday. There is a stand on which they are kept - neatly stacked next to each other - to better use space on the stand. In the room previously, it was meant to be a shared room for 2 patients. Naturally, it had 2 of those stands. One the nurses used for feeds and the other exclusively for storage of the bottles among other things. I used to ogle at the bottles. Whenever anyone came, the first thing they did was grab a bottle and glug it down (it was a hot summer). Not this room. It is a single room. Only 1 stand. The nurses need it next to me for the feeds. Its on my left side. The hand works. The bottles are neatly stacked next to me. Come to think of it, that's the closest I have come to a bottle of water

My earliest memories of deep craving was just after the stroke in the hospital. It was peak summer and a very hot. (Not that I could feel any heat but by how everybody was reacting and talking about it). I was struggling to even swallow a couple of drops when everyone was glugging down bottles of water. I was parched. They used to give a bottle with every feed. It used to be neatly stacked on the table in front. I now know I was not feeling thirsty. I haven't felt thirsty in 3 years. There are no feelings in my throat. It was just the mind's craving to want to drink water. I haven't felt that craving for food. Maybe because everyone was careful that I don't see it. I could hear description of foods from the eateries around and what was swiggyed etc. But I didn't feel that craving as could neither see or smell anything. Now, I have numbed the mind to water and sight of foods enough and I don't feel anything. However some strong smells I can get when I am sitting