Mind of my Stroked Brain

As I go through this journey/ process of rehab, I am realising it is a process of patience and efforts. It is probably different for different conditions and strokes, however this is what I am encountering. Of course one needs to exercise both for any recovery - generally speaking. However I guess it is not a case of both overall, but sequential for every bit. Initially, when I was just a lump of flesh and bones, I could not move a muscle anywhere. I guess there is a lot of encouragement to do things etc etc. However it only needs patience and more patience. I remember, there was everyone encouraging and pushing to do this and that, do more, etc. And I would be wondering what they mean.  The brain was not connected to the body. Its very difficult to describe the feeling but simply put, I didn't know what it means. I knew what is being asked but I didn't know what it bodily meant. For ex, I would be asked in physio to move some part, in swallowing therapy i would be asked to swa...

Somebody recently remarked on the tolerance I have shown with regard to my journey. On occasions, I have also been told I have been very strong, very brave , so on - through dealing with all circumstances after the stroke. I have reflected and pondered on it many times. I don't think I thought myself weak or fearful etc. but I also hadn't associated myself with brave, strong, etc. I have honestly wondered how and where the drive is coming from. After a lot of thinking, I have narrowed it down to 3 things mainly. 1. The affection, care, patience and help of my wife, kids, close friends and family.  I know, it sounds like the customary mention of a recipient of an Oscar's acceptance speech - but I can't highlight how important it is to have understanding, support and most importantly, patience from folks around you when going through something like this. Most times when I have been difficult and stubborn to anybody in the normal scheme of things, I have done it knowingly ...