Mind of my Stroked Brain

Before my stroke, I was a regular bloke with lots of work, lots of goals, lots of priorities and lots of distractions. This was both office work and personal life at home. Like with any regular bloke, I had ample share of distractions, procrastination, laziness etc, etc  After the stroke, it has come down significantly . I am not professing to be above all these. It has come down significantly though. Very significantly. I keep getting the complaint from everyone about my very painful following ups, urgency with everything, pestering about progress as follow up to something or updates etc. I have thought about it. It's not like I was setting such crazy expectations and the bar so high earlier. I had assumed it was just natural because of the effect of not being able to do anything & understanding the value of time and abilities because I am like this. It made sense and I had made peace with that explanation to my mind. Some days back, I was watching a podcast type talk show, wh

Leia (my dog) must have told you - I was out yesterday. It was a nice day and I had a great time.  But not for one of my nurses. She was miserable all through the drive. I felt very sorry for her. It was worse on the way back - took longer and jerkier due to the traffic.  I could empathise very much with her plight. I knew exactly how she might be feeling. I used to struggle with severe motion sickness earlier. I used to be ok if I was driving. However, any passenger seat was almost a guarantee to bring up everything. If I didn't throw up. It usually was because I was drowsy or asleep having OD-ed on avomine (an anti nausia tab). This was also one of the main reasons why I loved the bike and hated anything with four wheels. This was my big worry when being discharged from the hospital 2 and half years ago. I had not much movements, I couldn't speak, I had a tube from my throat and I couldn't sit.  I had to go lying in an ambulance. It was a 1 hour ride across silk board (a

This has no medical basis. I feel/ think, based on the progress of my rehab, that my stroke did 2 kinds of damages to me. Physically speaking, the consequences have been several... The stroke happened in my brain stem. The brain stem is the main connector between the brain and the rest of the body (through the spine mainly). Like a conduit. The brain stem is also considered the most ancient part of the brain, so nothing "human" is managed by it. But it controls very vital automatic functions - like hear beat, blood pressure, breathing, body temperature, swallowing, sleep cycles, coughing, amongst many other things we do automatically and naturally. So actually, the stroke left me with all human abilities, and many of the animal abilities stripped off. 😂 It's anti-evolutionary if you think of it like that... Some things - like heart beat, blood pressure, etc have been ok - although struggled in the ICU initially Many other things -like breath control, swallowing, coughing