Mind of my Stroked Brain

There is rarely a channel I can watch nowadays for an hour without hearing AI or Humanoid robots. They are being manufactured by several companies to help us at home/ working alongside us , even make us coffee. Usually they are showing of its capabilities and how it moves and does this and that... And I can think about is how incredibly clumsy it is .  I mean, what is our obsession to make it look like a human being and limit it's abilities. For ex. It is struggling to stand, walk and balance on two feet. Any kid from high school will tell you that the most stable platform on and surface is with 3 legs. That's why we have tripods for cameras. So why not build a robot with 3 legs and see how it does. Same with hands/ arms. We (in india) have grown up listening to the great Gods with nothing less than 4 hands. Most have 10. So why limit these robots with just 2. I am sure they can get more done and more efficient with a few more. Looks like the limitations of our mind is being im...

Recently, I wrote about my feeling that my condition had started on a declining slope. ( https://mindofmystrokedbrain. blogspot.com/2024/12/20241201- two-lines-curves-and-their. html ) I got many kind folks telling me afterwards that it was going to be temporary, not lose hope, it'll certainly get better, etc. I think we, human beings - are inherently compassionate/ good. At least 99+% of us. I think so. As an untrained person, If I meet a stage 4 aggressive illness person, who has absolutely no chance and is in a palliative care facility, my first impulse is to offer kind words of "it'll be ok" etc. The feeling is real. very real. but devoid from reality completely. Same with me. I completely and 100% appreciate & understand the sentiment of caring by folks offering it. But as I said, it is completely devoid of practical reality. Even my therapists who work with me everyday don't know what is happening with me everyday. Due to their professional experience ...

In the initial months after my stroke. I could hardly see anything that was moving.  It doesn't have anything to do with my retina, optic nerve etc. in order to focus, our lens have to either bulge or thin out to focus incoming light properly on our retina. This action is controlled by "ciliary" muscles. No points for who controls them - completely by our autonomous nervous system whose seat is in the brain stem.  So, I couldn't see anything that moved. At one thing in one place, it would slowly settle down and focus but couldn't deal with moving things.  This was very exasperated when I was taken somewhere in the car. Couldn't see anything from the side window. Everything was constantly moving and what I saw was just a haze.  Over time, like most things in my body, it started very slowly getting better.  If I describe it as a line , it was an upward moving line with a very small upward gradient. This was a line driven by the work of neuroplasticity. In the pa...

When I had my stroke early in 2019 I was in the hospital's ICU for a little over a month. I don't remember if they gave me a bath in the ICU. It didn't matter to me anyway as I was unconscious there mostly and hallucinating all the time.  Later they shifted me to their HDU ward (high dependency unit). It was at the end of a long corridor of atleast another 20-24 wards/ rooms.  That made it miserable!  Why you say? They have very skeletal staff for the night shift (nurses, attenders, doctors, everything). It is the duty/ responsibility of the night shift staff to give a bath to the patients and handover to the day staff.  Usually 1 nurse + 1 attender (ward boy) had the responsibility of giving bath to all the patients of one side of the long corridor.  They did a quick namesake job (ಕಾಟಾಚಾರ ಕೆಲಸ). Even then, it would take 15-20 minutes per patient - disrobe, bath, enrobe, teeth cleaning, etc).  They had to finish this for all the patients before 7:30AM (whic...

Over the years, I have heard about the many worlds that exist, based on upbringing, beliefs, etc. Bhuloka - earth I think  Swargaloka - heaven  Narakaloka - hell Paatalaloka - I don't know what it is in english  etc., etc ... As I said earlier, these are driven by our belief system, upbringing and to a certain extent, also underscored by our religious beliefs. I am sure there are many more... However, I have no real proof for most of them, except earth... Within the earth, I think we live in 5 worlds : 1. Political world  2. Economic world  3. Technological world  4. The planet world & 5. personal world. Again, I am sure there are many more dimensions to cut it into, but these are what I feel we are primarily in. 1. The political world: primarily driven by borders as countries/ nations based on all kinds of reasons - geographical, religious, language, you name it. Primarily driven by ego and power. Whether we like it or not, we belong to one of those pl...

Every once in a while, I watch this video https://youtu.be/U9WOMerccoM?si=7E0I2-VZnaZUNkD- Note : I don't know who has made this video.. it is just a freely available video on YouTube. I am not trying to promote it either on anyone's behalf... I don't know how accurate it is either. It is accurate enough for doing the job for me. Anyway, every once in a while, when I am a bit agitated or overwhelmed or get anxious about something, i watch this video. I cast it on the TV and watch it big for better effect and result. Basically, It reminds my place in the grand scheme of things. It puts things back to the right perspective...

 Couple of weeks ago, I had mentioned about my teeth condition and the possibility that I might have to knock 1-2 as well ( https://mindofmystrokedbrain. blogspot.com/2024/07/20240728- pain-that-can-be-borne.html ). I went to the hospital yesterday for it. You might be wondering why I went to a hospital when I should have been going to a dental clinic for it. ​i) That's because in my condition, there are many emergencies that can happen and a dental clinic is not equipped with all the facilities that is required to cope with such emergencies. ii) More importantly, it is  because I didn't see a dentist but a " maxillofacial surgeon ".  "maxillofacial" - I came across that term only recently. ​  ​ I have always had a limited vocabulary in English... I wouldn't say it was poor, it was just adequate and limited to words used in regular speaking stuff.  I have always wondered what is the necessity of using complex words when we...