Mind of my Stroked Brain

Recently, I wrote about my feeling that my condition had started on a declining slope. ( https://mindofmystrokedbrain. blogspot.com/2024/12/20241201- two-lines-curves-and-their. html ) I got many kind folks telling me afterwards that it was going to be temporary, not lose hope, it'll certainly get better, etc. I think we, human beings - are inherently compassionate/ good. At least 99+% of us. I think so. As an untrained person, If I meet a stage 4 aggressive illness person, who has absolutely no chance and is in a palliative care facility, my first impulse is to offer kind words of "it'll be ok" etc. The feeling is real. very real. but devoid from reality completely. Same with me. I completely and 100% appreciate & understand the sentiment of caring by folks offering it. But as I said, it is completely devoid of practical reality. Even my therapists who work with me everyday don't know what is happening with me everyday. Due to their professional experience ...

In the initial months after my stroke. I could hardly see anything that was moving.  It doesn't have anything to do with my retina, optic nerve etc. in order to focus, our lens have to either bulge or thin out to focus incoming light properly on our retina. This action is controlled by "ciliary" muscles. No points for who controls them - completely by our autonomous nervous system whose seat is in the brain stem.  So, I couldn't see anything that moved. At one thing in one place, it would slowly settle down and focus but couldn't deal with moving things.  This was very exasperated when I was taken somewhere in the car. Couldn't see anything from the side window. Everything was constantly moving and what I saw was just a haze.  Over time, like most things in my body, it started very slowly getting better.  If I describe it as a line , it was an upward moving line with a very small upward gradient. This was a line driven by the work of neuroplasticity. In the pa...