" I love you "... What does it mean? I am aware of what it means generally. We are familiar with those words commonly in many contexts. This is a debate and deliberation I have been having in my mind for some time now. We can love people - our parents, siblings, spouses, children, family, friends, etc. We can love animals - dogs, cats, all forms of pets. Or generally be an animal lover overall. "I Love all animals" type... Or, we can love things as well - so many times we have heard "I love my car", "I love my bike", "I love my house", etc, etc. But what does it mean? I feel this (and I am sure there will be many other perspectives and interpretations) I cannot really simply say "I love someone" and leave it at the level of words. My love towards someone can only become real if I find ways to express my love towards them. Expressing love happens in several forms - care, affection, attention, concern, sacrifice, adjusting,...
Recently, I wrote that I am living on the edge everyday between going on v / s giving up. It probably can also be interpreted as the edge of remaining sane v / s going insane... Anyway, I have often wondered, when everything is looking so bleak to the mind's eye, what makes me go through the day and make it to the next day. What is it that is causing this? Is Love what is giving me the strength? Love is a very fashionable word in my opinion. It is very easy to say we love someone. It is equally applicable to our love towards people, animals and things. In my opinion, Love gets manifested to reality with care and affection. That's how our love is expressed. Sure, I love my wife, children, family and friends. Everyone to different extent s depending on the degree of closeness or separation. But it has been many many years since I have really expressed any love through care towards anyone. In the initial period of the stroke, I was very very desperate to want t...
Yup, 6-er today. 6 years since I had my stroke. I had the stroke when I was 43. If I make it to the end of this year, I will complete my ½ century on the scoreboard overall. I can certainly say this past year has been the year of regression in my rehabilitation - both physically and mentally. Physical fitness (unfitness actually) has probably dragged the mind in a negative/ downward spiral as well. Physically, there have been no real gains. Both my right leg and hand have become worse than they were a year ago. Been additionally having a nagging back ache for many weeks now which is not allowing me to do usual physiotherapy routines. I felt there was some gains inbetween with voicing but that has been lost as well for sometime. So, all in, not a positive year. Mentally, day to day mundane activities I am doing fine. But the deeper mind which deals with more existential thoughts has decayed a lot. I am not able to reconcile the need to exist. I think I have written about this...
Very nice 😀
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