20220327 : liberation

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When I come to the hospital, I think about dying. The isolation in ICU helps.

Not mine (well that also), but dying in general.

Anyway I as usual worked up the mind about what has become, the physical struggle etc etc and finally got to the same ending.

How to end it!.

After several permutations and combinations same result. I can't see it through. Not now. Definitely not alone.

So I wondered who would help me.

 Nobody I can think of.

I can understand the simple reason.

It's classified Suicide. Its not allowed in this land by law.

For argument's sake, if the law didn't restrict, could I enlist someone.

It's still next to impossible.

it is labelled "Suicide". Suicide is "bad"

Everything from God to fear of bad karmas will stop anyone from helping.

From what I understand, anything related to God and karma and rebirth is because everyone wants to have a better chance at liberation.

We have taken it as truth - whether read from books or spoken etc. 

Books and anything written is written by men only I guess.

Spoken stuff is definitely man.

Nobody is lying, they have written and spoken what they have experienced. Now what they have experienced cannot be shared.

Also, I don't know now if the experience was in the shared world or their exclusive world.

To really understand the reality, we have to liberate the self from the body. Dying is the first step to find out.

Any other further liberation is next.


So instead of saying "I want to commit suicide" will it help remove the fear by saying "I want to liberate myself from this body"

Will the "bad" label slowly go away?

Comments

  1. Anonymous7/5/22 21:55

    Srikanth , even after 20 months you want to let go of life - but there are other people deciding for you - it is truly unfortunate

    Having said that. I am reading all your blogs - and it is inspirational. You going away would be a loss indeed - it’s not a glib, I truly mean it. But mine and other blog reader’s personal loss is tiny in front of your drive to do what you want with your life.

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