20220327 : hospital care after a stage

I feel, every type of place evokes certain types of feelings. It also makes us think a certain style.

Ex, we can be at a school - and feel one way. 

Or be at an airport - and feel different emotions.

Similarly - hospitals.

Our behaviour changes, we speak softer maybe, a little more sensitive to how others may feel - perfect strangers. We won't usually feel that way if we saw the same folk in a park.

It usually evokes very deep questions about things too.

When we see somebody else suffering, we think what would I do in that situation.

We find some answers. Convincing or otherwise.

Of course, few hours later, the scene changes, emotions change, mood changes and that train of thought gets derailed and fades.

Of course I have the luxury of being in the space. And the luxury of time.

In the ICU, its even more stark. Nobody is allowed to disturb us. No phones, no TV, no nothing.

You only have the company of thoughts.

As this is a hospital. The destinations for the trains are already set.

So I thought, might as well board one of the trains and see where it takes me.

I was in the NICU. I could see at least a dozen folks there. I got later shifted to MICU. Another dozen folks there. The probably have an ICU for half the alphabet.

One general observation by glance and more than half the folks are above half the usual human age.

Within that group, half are in the last segment of life.

What are we doing bringing them here?

Ya ya, I understand it's for medical intervention. 

But nobody I know has lived forever. 

The entire human age is inconsequential in the scales of the cosmos anyway.

What will adding a few days or months or years do?

Besides, after a point, life span and quality of life is generally inversely related.

I could see most of the very old folks - sedated, tubes running around , iv lines running, machines beeping all around, etc.

What happened to being at home, amongst family/ friends. Familiar faces and loved ones. Listening to what you want to.

Is that left to old books and movies?

Its an industry running on selling hopes to the loved ones.

If hope doesn't work, fear will.

Nobody in their sane mind and stable emotions will refrain from taking their loved ones to the hospital/ ICU.

After a point, it's up to me to tell my loved ones that its crossed that line, I have done everything I wanted to do, if something crops up, i want to be at home and not to take me to the hospital/ ICU...