20220127 : pursuing the mind

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More I look for what someone is not doing,
   More I will find.

More I look for what someone is doing,
  More I will find as well.

Same person, same reality.

In the former, I trouble the mind (and the body as a consequence I suppose).

In the latter, I nourish the mind (and the body).


Which line I pursue is upto me, not the mind...


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